Love having a body
A physical presence
A solid one
The friction of my existence
Against the materiality of the real
Featureless
Want to be feartureless
Go through my wardrobe
Look for black clothes
Don't have enough
Something close to the body
Wish my clothes didn't wrinkle as I move
Want them smooth
Hide my hair under a cap
Then put the hoody on
Wish a could have no hair at all
Respirator covers part of my face
But not enough
Want to wear the bigger one
Hide more skin
Sun glasses help
Square, shiny…
Want more
Hide more
Look at the face
It has too much details
Want less fat
Remove the nose
Remove the boobs
Be flat everywhere
Featureless
Finally, somewhat comfortable
But then there is the skin
So white
So visible
Remarkable
Want to make it disappear
Be dark
A shadow
Want to be indistinguishable
No gender
No feature
Just a figure
A silhouette, incarnate
